This has been a good day. I love good days.
Tomorrow, I'm making a DVD [nothing exceptional there] and then I'm going "dress shopping"...or actually, I'm just gonna try on dresses. Because I'm graduating next year and I feel like looking for a dress right away because this year's grad is 3 months away. I'm invited. I should start looking for something to wear. Dress. Spring dress. I want something blue. Or green. Green sounds good. But maybe blue. Maybe purple! Not pink. Blue. No. Green.
I can't make up my mind. We'll just see which colour looks best on me.
...Ok, I'm only gonna go try on dresses because it's fun. Crazy fun.
Well, I'm gonna go think about some guy who doesn't like me now.
...
It's so funny that we're already thinking about our grad. Already talking about who's invited and who's not, dresses, shoes, hair and makeup...tattoos :]. I can't wait. But at the same time, I don't ever want to leave. Wow, next year is going to be special.
-Later
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
It Went To His Head
Oh My Freakin God. Today was just so...ugh.
I realised that
#1 --> I always put myself in potentially hurtful situations. Most of those situations involve guys. And most of the time, it's unrequited feelings on my or the guy's part that makes them potentially hurtful.
#2 --> Holy Crap, what the hell was I thinking when I decided to go out with that guy? I mean, he spent the day telling everyone not to get a girl to calm down, just because she was gonna beat up some dude that he doesn't like at all. Seriously, we all know they hate each other, but not only is he being an instigating piece of shit by doing that [and actually telling her how to beat him up], but he's also being a real dumbass. He's making himself sound like he wants her to beat the guy up cause he doesn't have the balls to do it. I told him, too, that if he hated the guy that much he should just do it himself. And then told him to shut up when he was telling her to smash his head against the wall. And he gave me "the finger". :o Wow, nice comeback.
Oh, and the guy called me a whore today because I took away his bottle cap. He was using the bottle as a projectile [the cap] launcher on my friends. I threw it away. And he said something along the lines of "that whore". Meh, he's just frustrated cause he never got any from me when we were together :]. Nyahahahahahaha!
#3 --> Yoga is the best therapy around. I always feel like sleeping, leaving the gym.
#4 --> I am now on that level. The one where it *is* possible not to give a shit about someone you used to care about. And I'm over the drama. Of course, life is boring without it...but I don't want any part of it.
ANYWAYS. Gonna go watch Poseidon now.
- Laters
I realised that
#1 --> I always put myself in potentially hurtful situations. Most of those situations involve guys. And most of the time, it's unrequited feelings on my or the guy's part that makes them potentially hurtful.
#2 --> Holy Crap, what the hell was I thinking when I decided to go out with that guy? I mean, he spent the day telling everyone not to get a girl to calm down, just because she was gonna beat up some dude that he doesn't like at all. Seriously, we all know they hate each other, but not only is he being an instigating piece of shit by doing that [and actually telling her how to beat him up], but he's also being a real dumbass. He's making himself sound like he wants her to beat the guy up cause he doesn't have the balls to do it. I told him, too, that if he hated the guy that much he should just do it himself. And then told him to shut up when he was telling her to smash his head against the wall. And he gave me "the finger". :o Wow, nice comeback.
Oh, and the guy called me a whore today because I took away his bottle cap. He was using the bottle as a projectile [the cap] launcher on my friends. I threw it away. And he said something along the lines of "that whore". Meh, he's just frustrated cause he never got any from me when we were together :]. Nyahahahahahaha!
#3 --> Yoga is the best therapy around. I always feel like sleeping, leaving the gym.
#4 --> I am now on that level. The one where it *is* possible not to give a shit about someone you used to care about. And I'm over the drama. Of course, life is boring without it...but I don't want any part of it.
ANYWAYS. Gonna go watch Poseidon now.
- Laters
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Think I'm On The Edge
Spent most of last night dragging this lake
For the corpses of all my past mistakes
Sell me out - the joke's on you
We are salt - you are the wound
Empty another bottle
And let me tear you to pieces
This is me wishing you
Into the worst situations
I'm the kind of kid
That can't let anything go
But you wouldn't know a good thing
If it came up and slit your throat
Woah [x2]
Ooo
Woah [x2]
Your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears
Rather ones that just don't care
Cause I know
That you're in between arms somewhere
Next to heartbeats
Where you shouldn't dare sleep
Now I'll teach you a lesson
For keeping secrets from me
Take your taste back
Peel back your skin
And try to forget how it feels inside
You should try saying no once in a while
Oh once in a while[x2]
And did you hear the news?
I could dissect you
And gut you on this stage
Not as eloquent as I may have imagined
But it will get the job done
(you're done)
Every line is plotted and designed
To leave you standing
On your bedroom window's ledge
And everyone else that it hits
That it gets to
Is nothing more than collateral damage
Take your taste back
Peel back your skin
And try to forget how it feels inside
You should try saying no once in a while
Oh once in a while[x2]
For the corpses of all my past mistakes
Sell me out - the joke's on you
We are salt - you are the wound
Empty another bottle
And let me tear you to pieces
This is me wishing you
Into the worst situations
I'm the kind of kid
That can't let anything go
But you wouldn't know a good thing
If it came up and slit your throat
Woah [x2]
Ooo
Woah [x2]
Your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears
Rather ones that just don't care
Cause I know
That you're in between arms somewhere
Next to heartbeats
Where you shouldn't dare sleep
Now I'll teach you a lesson
For keeping secrets from me
Take your taste back
Peel back your skin
And try to forget how it feels inside
You should try saying no once in a while
Oh once in a while[x2]
And did you hear the news?
I could dissect you
And gut you on this stage
Not as eloquent as I may have imagined
But it will get the job done
(you're done)
Every line is plotted and designed
To leave you standing
On your bedroom window's ledge
And everyone else that it hits
That it gets to
Is nothing more than collateral damage
Take your taste back
Peel back your skin
And try to forget how it feels inside
You should try saying no once in a while
Oh once in a while[x2]
Thursday, March 8, 2007
Right Back Where We Started From
Honestly what will become of me
Don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling and the clouds were dropping
And the rain forgot how to bring salvation
The dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die
I love this song :]
Don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end, come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling and the clouds were dropping
And the rain forgot how to bring salvation
The dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die
I love this song :]
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
What Everyone's Talking About
I am such an idiot sometimes
I always get caught in the same traps
So now that I know for sure that I don't like that older guy, I can freely talk about that weird encounter I had at the gym the other day.
I was talking to my friend about a woman I worked with this summer [really nice lady] because I had seen someone with a similar car driving ...well...let's just say the person was not a really good driver. I mention that the woman's son once sort of crashed the car [not that much damage, but still, worth mentioning].
We get to the gym, and he's there.
Freaked me out :].
Anywho, today I had to come back home from school cause I was sick. I spent my afternoon doing nothing, then sleeping.
I watched "Stranger than Fiction". It was surprisingly good [not in the way that I didn't think it was going to be good, but in the way that I thought it was going to be more of a comedy than it really was].
I'm now gonna go hit my head on something to get stuff out of my mind :]
I'm an idiooooooootttttttttttttttt, gahhd, lmao.
Laters
I always get caught in the same traps
So now that I know for sure that I don't like that older guy, I can freely talk about that weird encounter I had at the gym the other day.
I was talking to my friend about a woman I worked with this summer [really nice lady] because I had seen someone with a similar car driving ...well...let's just say the person was not a really good driver. I mention that the woman's son once sort of crashed the car [not that much damage, but still, worth mentioning].
We get to the gym, and he's there.
Freaked me out :].
Anywho, today I had to come back home from school cause I was sick. I spent my afternoon doing nothing, then sleeping.
I watched "Stranger than Fiction". It was surprisingly good [not in the way that I didn't think it was going to be good, but in the way that I thought it was going to be more of a comedy than it really was].
I'm now gonna go hit my head on something to get stuff out of my mind :]
I'm an idiooooooootttttttttttttttt, gahhd, lmao.
Laters
Saturday, March 3, 2007
Between Us (What Goes Around...)
I should've stayed home yesterday. I knew I was sick, I should have stayed home. Now my throat is sore. My whole body aches. And my knees hurt like a bitch.
And the bus ride coming back from it brought back unwelcomed memories of the time we Grade 10-11-12s were in the tiny bus going to that other activity thing. We were maybe 12 in that bus, and we had fun. I didn't know I would start thinking about it again and that it'd almost make me sick to my stomach. That, and you-know-who bragging about that girl he "didn't go out with but screwed around with" who ended up on the same volleyball team as yours truly. We didn't talk or anything. She does not have the tiniest idea who I am, and I really want it to stay that way. Don't need any drama now that everything is going well again. I don't like anyone, and from what I know, no one likes me. Everything is good family-wise. My mom just got back form Texas yesterday. And school is good too.
I'm crossing my fingers, hoping it'll stay like this for a bit.
In other news, I'm starting to wonder what I'm gonna wear to grad [even though it's, like, 4 months away :P]. Hahaha, I love planning these things.
How I wish I had a steam shower, Haha.
I'm gonna go play with my makeup now :)
Byebye
And the bus ride coming back from it brought back unwelcomed memories of the time we Grade 10-11-12s were in the tiny bus going to that other activity thing. We were maybe 12 in that bus, and we had fun. I didn't know I would start thinking about it again and that it'd almost make me sick to my stomach. That, and you-know-who bragging about that girl he "didn't go out with but screwed around with" who ended up on the same volleyball team as yours truly. We didn't talk or anything. She does not have the tiniest idea who I am, and I really want it to stay that way. Don't need any drama now that everything is going well again. I don't like anyone, and from what I know, no one likes me. Everything is good family-wise. My mom just got back form Texas yesterday. And school is good too.
I'm crossing my fingers, hoping it'll stay like this for a bit.
In other news, I'm starting to wonder what I'm gonna wear to grad [even though it's, like, 4 months away :P]. Hahaha, I love planning these things.
How I wish I had a steam shower, Haha.
I'm gonna go play with my makeup now :)
Byebye
Thursday, March 1, 2007
Let's Get Gone
Beyond the common grind;
The 9 to 5 the dead end jobs we try,
We try to hide.
We struggle through the means;
To meet the ends.
Please tell me that this life isn't permanent.
Cause we don't care enough.
(We don't care enough)
So don't hold it off.
You're what gets me off;
Gets me through long and sober days.
You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
(We've gone to far to be unnoticed)
Days and weeks go by,
And seasons change.
The scenery gets old;
It stays the same.
Theres nothing in this town;
But you and I.
So baby pack your bags cause we leave tonight.
Cause we don't care enough.
(We don't care enough)
So don't hold it off.
You're what gets me off;
Gets me through long and sober days.
You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
We've gone to far to be unnoticed.
So lets get gone.
You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
We've gone to far to be unnoticed.
So lets get gone.
So we've spent our nights awake;
Passed every small town along the way.
Here's to bad times;
They were the best times.
Give up the good times,
And we'll survive.
You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
We've gone to far to be unnoticed.
So lets get gone
The 9 to 5 the dead end jobs we try,
We try to hide.
We struggle through the means;
To meet the ends.
Please tell me that this life isn't permanent.
Cause we don't care enough.
(We don't care enough)
So don't hold it off.
You're what gets me off;
Gets me through long and sober days.
You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
(We've gone to far to be unnoticed)
Days and weeks go by,
And seasons change.
The scenery gets old;
It stays the same.
Theres nothing in this town;
But you and I.
So baby pack your bags cause we leave tonight.
Cause we don't care enough.
(We don't care enough)
So don't hold it off.
You're what gets me off;
Gets me through long and sober days.
You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
We've gone to far to be unnoticed.
So lets get gone.
You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
We've gone to far to be unnoticed.
So lets get gone.
So we've spent our nights awake;
Passed every small town along the way.
Here's to bad times;
They were the best times.
Give up the good times,
And we'll survive.
You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
We've gone to far to be unnoticed.
So lets get gone
***********
I woke up this morning and did the usual. Then went outside to wait for the bus and to my surprise, it was sunny. Sunny and snowing. I have to say, it was just beautiful. It was perfect.
Then I got on the bus. 28 minutes later, we were stuck and my toes were ice. But I was still happy. I'm just too happy.
God, I don't think I've ever loved a day of my life more than I loved this one. Everything seems to have fallen into place. I talk to whoever I want. No shyness. And today, new development, actually sort of talked to my ex. It wasn't awkward or anything. I'm glad. I don't want to be the girl who hates and is hated by all her exes. As long as things are somewhat ...civilized...then I am good.
I♥days like these.
Gahd...I was invited to grad, too. :] I'm happy. Really happy to be going. Cause I love them. I was wondering if they would actually invite us. They're not inviting all the grade 11s, but I am. And Jojo too.
Makes me wonder who I'm gonna want to invite to my grad. I already have people in mind...but who will I invite. The people I never talk to, well, as much as I still like them, they probably won't be invited. I'm not even sure we'll invite anyone who's not in grade 12 ... This is going to cause conflict, I swear. I'd invite anyone and everyone I like and who wants to go. But that would be lots of people. Hmmmmmm. Well I still have a year to think it over :]. I can't believe I'm graduating next year. It's so weird...Even weirder than this year's Gr12 graduating. I'm gonna miss them so much, sigh. Just won't be the same without them...
They are the only bit of awesomeness left to this school. All the other cool people have already left the building :].
:}
Well. I'm gonna go do something.
-Laters
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