How About you Fuck Right Off?

Here is some life advice:

1. Don't be a stupid bitch and make ignorant comments about things you don't know.
2. Don't be a bitch and act like you have the right to make inane comments about whatever you please without considering other people's feelings.
3. How about you just not be a bitch at all? Oh wait, it's too hard. Goes against the nature and whatnot.
4. How about you mind your own fucking business and stop making everything about you all the time as if eveything in the whole wide world revolved around you? No wonder your other friends fucking hate you!
5. Don't go around acting all innocent and being a tease to every guy you meet. If you don't want to come off as a slut, don't act like one.

Overall, just be a decent human being and everything should be just fine for you. Otherwise, you'll just keep losing more and more friends, guys will only be with you for sex, just like they are now and you'll end up an old spinster cat lady!

Another Ruined Christmas.

Thanks a lot.

You Will Always be one of the Prettiest Girls I've Ever Met...

You will also always be one of the most conceited, shallow and insignificant ones, too.

- Love

My 2009 To-Do List

It seems impossible for me to write in a normal journal or to write down what I feel using a pen. I just feel like writing it in a book makes it so much more intimate, whereas writing it in this blog is out in the open. I have nothing to hide. I don't want to feel like I do.

Not many people know of this blog, and I would really like to keep it that way. I don't mind strangers reading this. What do they know about me? Nothing...

Many thoughts of mine could be hurtful to the people around me. That's not something I like to do...hurt people, that is. Sometimes, it just helps to get everything out of your system.

Either way, I have some New Years resolutions, and even though it's just Christmas' Eve, I will post them today. I don't trust myself to write here again before New Year's.

So here goes:
- Have more faith in the people I know.
- Be more agreeable.
- Focus on school work and reading.
- Strive for better health, whether mental or physical.
- Be helpful, more so than I already am.
- Be more understanding of other people and of the differences that divide us.
- Let go of the things that have hurt me in the past.
- Forgive the people who have hurt me, if they are repentant and demonstrate a will to change.
- Look presentable at all times.
- Work hard.
- Have more fun and go out with my friends more often.
- Spend as little as possible, while not forgetting to buy food and a cute dress for this year's grad.
- Have more respect for my peers and their opinions whether or not I agree with them

On the Road Again...

Alright...so I haven't posted here in GKHL ...
and I'm really just posting to say that I won't be posting anymore...which is stupid...but oh well :P
Adios

You Snooze You Lose

Instead of perpetrating the usual bit of drama created by some random unhappy person, I have decided that to get rid of the problem as fast as possible is the best way to deal with that kind of thing. In this case, a person who enjoys and wants to see me get angry and/or sad.

Therefore, do not be surprised when you figure out that I have blocked both your msn accounts, and that I have taken you out of my "friends" list on Facebook. If you do not treat me as a friend should, you will not be considered one.

Time has changed, so have I, and I refuse to be treated that way. I'm sorry to tell you this, but you'll have to find another person to take your frustrations out on.

However, if you were to stop treating me in such a way, I would gladly add you back to me Facebook friends and unblock your msn accounts.

Right now, though, that seems unlikely. Oh well.
Not.My.Problem.

Byebye :)

Aftermath

Never in a million years would I have thought I could get so upset because an actor had died. It wasn't so much that I dislike them...more that I don't know them, and therefore can't feel anything but sympathy for the families and the friends. For some reason, Heath Ledger dying had the effect of a bomb dropping for me, which is probably why I've been dreaming of bombs and shootings and death in general for the past couple of days.

It's only been two days and it feels like forever. And I know why. It's because Heath Ledger was the only actor whose portrayal of a character was so deep, meaningful and utterly amazing that it triggered some kind of change in me, in my personality. It touched me. In a way, I was taking the actor for granted, foolishly thinking he would be there for decades, and give me more of those amazing performances of his. Opportunities for me to change and, therefore, to grow.

But Heath Ledger is gone now, as is the promise of a long career full of amazing roles. After this summer's The Dark Knight, we will never get to see a Heath Ledger movie ever again. He'll never light up the screen with that wonderful presence of his. I'll miss seeing an actor who can actually become a character instead of just playing it. I'll miss it a lot.

The worst part in all of this, other than the tragedy of a father dying and leaving behind his two-year-old daughter, is the trolls. The stupid remarks, mean-spirited comments, attacks on him because he played a gay cowboy in Brokeback Mountain. To that, I only have one answer really. It would be unkind of me to write it down. But in a nutshell, I guess I would state that I really suffer from this phobia : Homophobia-Phobia. I think anyone who, at this point, is close-minded enough to ridicule homosexual people deserves the worst kind of punishment. I don't know what that is, given that it's different for everybody, but they deserve it. Especially the ones who can't shut up about it and make disparaging comments about gay people. Especially!, the ones who are making horrible comments about Heath Ledger when the man just died. Have a little respect, for goodness' sake!

Back to my point though, I will really miss Ledgend. He was, after all, my favourite actor. I truly hope that his daughter will grow up to be told about her dad.