It's really intense, the feeling you get when all of a sudden, it seems like you are the biggest failure around. Like when you're studying for a Chemistry Diploma Exam and that you're just panicking because of your sudden lack of memory.
Overall, I'd say I'm probably going to pass this one with better marks than I did in Physics, and hopefully I'll be above 80% as a final mark. I'd really like that.
Right now though, I'm just thinking about the irony of the situation. You can do nothing for years, or you can try your best to do well in school. When it really comes down to it, though, the ones who do nothing are better off. If no one expects you to do well, you don't have to worry about their disappointment if you don't. Goodness, if you do well, then you're a hero.
However, if you've been a good student for a long time, people aren't as lenient. They expect you to do well. Whether you do or not doesn't matter, because either way, you're either dissatisfying them or leaving them cold with your impressive academic skills. If you don't do well, you disappoint. Get a good grade, and you will notice the total lack of enthusiasm, surprise or congratulations. Everyone expects you to be that person already! Why should they have to comfort you when you're worried about said exam? Why should they be happy, surprised, congratulatory or enthusiastic about your amazing marks, when they were expecting them in the first place?
The world is a giant world of injustices, and it's sad that the ones who do best are the ones everyone judges the most meticulously.
SIGH
Adieu
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