This is definitely going to be a good day. I got to sleep for 11 hours straight. I don't have a headache anymore. I am actually feeling great. Great Great Great!!!
I haven't drawn little hearts on pieces of paper today...but I've only been awake for an hour and a half. Today, I'm planning on doing, well, nothing at all.
I'll probably watch movies. God, the only reason why I love Christmas break is because I get to do nothing. And when I say nothing, I mean NOTHING.
I think I'm gonna go do nothing now. Well actually, I've got people to talk to :).
G'Bye
-Happy Holidays
Friday, December 29, 2006
Thursday, December 28, 2006
I Don't Feel Like Dancin'!
Or thinking, talking, eating...actually, I just want to do something that doesn't require brain activity. Like watching TV.
Maybe I'll just go back to watching movies. Today, I watched "Step Up" and "The Devil Wears Prada". Have to say, really, that movie surpasses the book in more ways than one. I just love how easy it is to sympathise with the protagonist in the movie, while she just seemed like a SNOB in the book. That book...it was just....There's no way to describe it. The ending was horrible. I'm not even sure if I'm talking about the book or the movie.
I just downloaded a bunch of songs. Just now. From iTunes.
I never thought I would like the Scissor Sisters. I do love "I Don't Feel Like Dancin'", though. Yep.
....I had a piece of paper next to me. I was holding a pen. Next thing I know, we're 20 minutes later and the paper has a bunch of hearts drawn on it. I feel like a 12-year-old all over again all of a sudden.
And that's pretty much all I have for today.
I think I gave myself a headache because I worry too much about things I shouldn't be worrying about. People I shouldn't be worried about. People I should ,just, not talk to anymore. People I should talk to more often. That and other stuff :).
Oh well, I need a break.
Toodles.
-Happy Holidays, by the way!!
Maybe I'll just go back to watching movies. Today, I watched "Step Up" and "The Devil Wears Prada". Have to say, really, that movie surpasses the book in more ways than one. I just love how easy it is to sympathise with the protagonist in the movie, while she just seemed like a SNOB in the book. That book...it was just....There's no way to describe it. The ending was horrible. I'm not even sure if I'm talking about the book or the movie.
I just downloaded a bunch of songs. Just now. From iTunes.
I never thought I would like the Scissor Sisters. I do love "I Don't Feel Like Dancin'", though. Yep.
....I had a piece of paper next to me. I was holding a pen. Next thing I know, we're 20 minutes later and the paper has a bunch of hearts drawn on it. I feel like a 12-year-old all over again all of a sudden.
And that's pretty much all I have for today.
I think I gave myself a headache because I worry too much about things I shouldn't be worrying about. People I shouldn't be worried about. People I should ,just, not talk to anymore. People I should talk to more often. That and other stuff :).
Oh well, I need a break.
Toodles.
-Happy Holidays, by the way!!
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
The End.
I guess it's the perfect ending to the worst year. I lose a person who used to mean so much to me. You said that I remember every horrible thing you did but that I forget evey stupid thing he's done. I don't. I don't remember everything you did, at least not the bad things.
I remember that one time when you were singing "Physical" and you hit your funny bone on my desk, in English class. We stilll laugh about it sometimes, you know. When someone hits their funny bone on, well, pretty much anything, the first thing we usually say is "Remember that one time, in English class"...
I remember one time we were in class, in Grade 8. The teacher was gone, and you just started singing that [incredibly annoying] Austin Powers song, and got the whole class to clap along with you.
How about when we were talking about how Grade 10 was such a soap-opera year for our class. That was this year. Just a few months ago. We were friends back then...or were we...
The last conversation I had with you, when you found out that I was "officially" going out with him. Remember that? That was the first time you actually seemed to care about me at all. Except maybe for that one time when you, me, Flo, Jojo and Erika were in the girls' bathroom. And I was basically crying my little heart out sitting on that cold floor, Flo right next to me, also crying. And you said we were friends. I remember answering "no". But to be completely honest, that's just because I was freakin heartbroken. I got over it fast, though.
I don't remember everything you've done that made me sad, like I don't remember everything you did that made me laugh. My memory just isn't that good.
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I really liked having you as a friend, if you can call it that...It's sad for me to think that we'll never be that way again.
I really hope everything turns out ok for you. Even if you don't care. Even if you hate me... Don't do anything too stupid, please.
Goodbye :)
Edit : I decided to change the colour of this post so that it matches the rest of them. Why should you I care about you when you don't even deserve it.
I remember that one time when you were singing "Physical" and you hit your funny bone on my desk, in English class. We stilll laugh about it sometimes, you know. When someone hits their funny bone on, well, pretty much anything, the first thing we usually say is "Remember that one time, in English class"...
I remember one time we were in class, in Grade 8. The teacher was gone, and you just started singing that [incredibly annoying] Austin Powers song, and got the whole class to clap along with you.
How about when we were talking about how Grade 10 was such a soap-opera year for our class. That was this year. Just a few months ago. We were friends back then...or were we...
The last conversation I had with you, when you found out that I was "officially" going out with him. Remember that? That was the first time you actually seemed to care about me at all. Except maybe for that one time when you, me, Flo, Jojo and Erika were in the girls' bathroom. And I was basically crying my little heart out sitting on that cold floor, Flo right next to me, also crying. And you said we were friends. I remember answering "no". But to be completely honest, that's just because I was freakin heartbroken. I got over it fast, though.
I don't remember everything you've done that made me sad, like I don't remember everything you did that made me laugh. My memory just isn't that good.
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I really liked having you as a friend, if you can call it that...It's sad for me to think that we'll never be that way again.
I really hope everything turns out ok for you. Even if you don't care. Even if you hate me... Don't do anything too stupid, please.
Goodbye :)
Edit : I decided to change the colour of this post so that it matches the rest of them. Why should you I care about you when you don't even deserve it.
Let's Rewind
So last night, I was told some pretty shocking news about someone, and it pretty much knocked the wind out of me.
But...
After basically driving myself crazy thinking about "what the bleeping hell am I gonna do now?" last night, I've come up with the conclusion that a person just can't be that horrible. Therefore, I've just decided to competely ignore whatever I have heard until I talk to the person mentioned in that first sentence. Why?
Because it's just not right to judge and sentence someone if they didn't get a fair trial. The jury's still out. I haven't decided what I'm going to do yet. You know...first-time offender.
I am so happy I have friends to kick my ass when I'm being a total idiot and when I'm being unfair.
Thanks K&K.
-Happy Holidays :)
But...
After basically driving myself crazy thinking about "what the bleeping hell am I gonna do now?" last night, I've come up with the conclusion that a person just can't be that horrible. Therefore, I've just decided to competely ignore whatever I have heard until I talk to the person mentioned in that first sentence. Why?
Because it's just not right to judge and sentence someone if they didn't get a fair trial. The jury's still out. I haven't decided what I'm going to do yet. You know...first-time offender.
I am so happy I have friends to kick my ass when I'm being a total idiot and when I'm being unfair.
Thanks K&K.
-Happy Holidays :)
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
I Hate High School
I hate high school. I hate high school mean girls. I hate high school boys. I hate everything that has to do with high school. I hate trusting people, and letting them get close to me. I hate seeing the good in people who don't deserve it. I hate people not minding their own business. I hate the people who spread rumours. I hate the people who believe those rumours. I hate people who stab you in the back and pretend that everything's fine. I hate people who tell you they love you, only to tell someone else that they don't. I hate feeling carefree and like I can trust everyone when in truth, everybody's just a bunch of opportunists waiting to betray me when it's beneficial to them. When it can bring them friends, popularity... I hate it. I hate all of it. I cannot wait until graduation. I'll be out of here before anyone can say "3000 km away!".
-Happy Holidays to you guys anyway.
Edit : I'm just plain tired of having feelings for people, whether it be love, dislike, or just liking someone. Why do I always have to be the person who's understanding ? Why do I always have to be the person who's sensible and considers other peoples' feelings?
-Happy Holidays to you guys anyway.
Edit : I'm just plain tired of having feelings for people, whether it be love, dislike, or just liking someone. Why do I always have to be the person who's understanding ? Why do I always have to be the person who's sensible and considers other peoples' feelings?
Happy Boxing Day, everybody.
I never really understood the point of Boxing Day. It's actually considered a holiday, for some reason. I actually went on wikipedia and looked it up, because I wanted to know who the hell made it a holiday. I love wiki. Anyways, I am way too lazy to type up the definition and origins of Boxing Day, so if you wanna know what it's about and where it comes from, wikipedia is the answer.
Changing the subject now, today has been horribly horrendous. This day has been the most boring day...ever. Only three interesting [if you can call them that] things happened today.
1) My Hot Topic order was [finally] shipped. That makes me happy! :)
2) My Apple order for iPod earphones was shipped [a day early]. That makes me happy too! :)
3) I read an article about Saddam Hussein's sentence and how he will supposedly be executed before January 27. Don't believe me?[http://www.cnn.com/2006/WORLD/meast/12/26/iraq.main/index.html]
As you can probably deduct from this post, I had an uneventful day. Changing the subject again, isn't it funny that 60% of my contacts were on MSN either on Christmas Eve or Christmas [or both], but *no one* was on today??
Anyways...I'm still looking for the perfect haircut [Wait, I haven't talked about how I'm looking for a haircut before...so I can't say I'm still looking...Whatever :)]...I can't believe I still haven't found one. I've been looking for like, a month. Ah, when I find it, I am so changing my hair. I can't stand having it look like it does right now. It's not ugly or anything, but it's remains of my old haircut [that I was too lazy to try to maintain]. It's not like I liked having bangs anyways. They're not very flattering for my face shape when they're shorter than [let's say] eyebrow length.
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Anywho :)
Happy Boxing day, Kwanzaa, and...Holidays!
Changing the subject now, today has been horribly horrendous. This day has been the most boring day...ever. Only three interesting [if you can call them that] things happened today.
1) My Hot Topic order was [finally] shipped. That makes me happy! :)
2) My Apple order for iPod earphones was shipped [a day early]. That makes me happy too! :)
3) I read an article about Saddam Hussein's sentence and how he will supposedly be executed before January 27. Don't believe me?[http://www.cnn.com/2006/WORLD/meast/12/26/iraq.main/index.html]
As you can probably deduct from this post, I had an uneventful day. Changing the subject again, isn't it funny that 60% of my contacts were on MSN either on Christmas Eve or Christmas [or both], but *no one* was on today??
Anyways...I'm still looking for the perfect haircut [Wait, I haven't talked about how I'm looking for a haircut before...so I can't say I'm still looking...Whatever :)]...I can't believe I still haven't found one. I've been looking for like, a month. Ah, when I find it, I am so changing my hair. I can't stand having it look like it does right now. It's not ugly or anything, but it's remains of my old haircut [that I was too lazy to try to maintain]. It's not like I liked having bangs anyways. They're not very flattering for my face shape when they're shorter than [let's say] eyebrow length.
...
Anywho :)
Happy Boxing day, Kwanzaa, and...Holidays!
Monday, December 25, 2006
Blah
I never thought my Christmas could get any worse. But I am starting to feel the nervous breakdown coming. And by nervous breakdown, I mean complete meltdown. Everything would be so much easier if I didn't care about people at all. But I do, and that sucks. As I've previously posted, my boyfriend is far from being an angel. He got into some trouble a while back, and everyone hates him for some reason. I go to a very small school, so everyone thinks this relationship is their business.
On the other hand, there's this guy who's liked me for so long. Being the person that I am, I can put myself in his shoes and just imagine what it must be like to see me dating a guy he hates. And I feel like such a horrible person for not feeling the same way about him that I actually considered going back to single life and staying that way for the rest of my life.
He makes me happy, though (my boyfriend). He somehow manages to cheer me up...and not a lot of people can do that. It just hurts ..and sucks, knowing that I'm hurting someone that bad just by being with him. Arg, I hate high school.
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I need to find something useful to do with my time. Maybe then I'll stop thinking about this.
-Happy Holidays, lovelies
Missing You
It's Christmas day today. I have spent my morning on the phone with family members, been this close to crying about three times already. My grandmother is extremely sad today, because it's her first Christmas without her husband (they had been married for 60 years when he passed away this January). My aunt is sad and angry because my uncle passed away this September and she feels everyone's abandoned. My mother is not feeling well. To be completely honest, neither am I.
I always end up being sad on Christmas. If it's not on the 24th, it's the 25th. Ever since we moved here, Christmas has been horrible. If it's not fights, it's tears.
Christmas just isn't going to be good anymore. I don't see how it could ever be like it was before [we moved here], not now, after 5 Christmas eves and days spent away from the rest of my family.
I hope your holidays are better than mine
Hopefully, the rest of my little vacation will go better than the first 3 days.
Later.
-Happy Holidays
I always end up being sad on Christmas. If it's not on the 24th, it's the 25th. Ever since we moved here, Christmas has been horrible. If it's not fights, it's tears.
Christmas just isn't going to be good anymore. I don't see how it could ever be like it was before [we moved here], not now, after 5 Christmas eves and days spent away from the rest of my family.
I hope your holidays are better than mine
Hopefully, the rest of my little vacation will go better than the first 3 days.
Later.
-Happy Holidays
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Feels Like 2005
Last year today, I was sitting at a table with my parents and some friends, eating, talking. I was completely carefree. This year, the same scene is being played, minus the friends, and somehow I feel that much more...mature. I don't know why I've changed, or when exactly. All I know is that I am calm and I'm...different, older. I am just plain...different. Maybe it's because I'm finally with the guy I've liked for the past month (or two...I'm not sure when exactly I started having feelings for him)...Or maybe because I am incredibly glad, grateful, happy, ecstatic that 2006 is finally ending. This has been the worst year. From my incredibly amazing person of a grandfather dying in January to me being completely shunned and/or criticised by people for , to put it simply, getting myself a boyfriend who makes me happy but who's far from being an angel.
Sometimes I just wish I could go by unnoticed. Not have to deal with people hating me or liking me. Never have to be rejected, nor to reject people. Privacy here seems to be an alien concept. No one respects it. Everyone just exposes everything to everyone. No one -doesn't- gossip, and not one person minds his/her business. If there is one thing I don't understand, it's people who don't seem to care about you at all until something remotely interesting happens to you (and then all hell breaks loose).
So here's to another Christmas. The beauty of it all is that even though I am happy that 2006 is ending (soon), when it does end, I will cry because it will be another year of my life gone, only to remain a distant memory for the years to come.
Much love
-Happy Holidays
Sometimes I just wish I could go by unnoticed. Not have to deal with people hating me or liking me. Never have to be rejected, nor to reject people. Privacy here seems to be an alien concept. No one respects it. Everyone just exposes everything to everyone. No one -doesn't- gossip, and not one person minds his/her business. If there is one thing I don't understand, it's people who don't seem to care about you at all until something remotely interesting happens to you (and then all hell breaks loose).
So here's to another Christmas. The beauty of it all is that even though I am happy that 2006 is ending (soon), when it does end, I will cry because it will be another year of my life gone, only to remain a distant memory for the years to come.
Much love
-Happy Holidays
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