Last year today, I was sitting at a table with my parents and some friends, eating, talking. I was completely carefree. This year, the same scene is being played, minus the friends, and somehow I feel that much more...mature. I don't know why I've changed, or when exactly. All I know is that I am calm and I'm...different, older. I am just plain...different. Maybe it's because I'm finally with the guy I've liked for the past month (or two...I'm not sure when exactly I started having feelings for him)...Or maybe because I am incredibly glad, grateful, happy, ecstatic that 2006 is finally ending. This has been the worst year. From my incredibly amazing person of a grandfather dying in January to me being completely shunned and/or criticised by people for , to put it simply, getting myself a boyfriend who makes me happy but who's far from being an angel.
Sometimes I just wish I could go by unnoticed. Not have to deal with people hating me or liking me. Never have to be rejected, nor to reject people. Privacy here seems to be an alien concept. No one respects it. Everyone just exposes everything to everyone. No one -doesn't- gossip, and not one person minds his/her business. If there is one thing I don't understand, it's people who don't seem to care about you at all until something remotely interesting happens to you (and then all hell breaks loose).
So here's to another Christmas. The beauty of it all is that even though I am happy that 2006 is ending (soon), when it does end, I will cry because it will be another year of my life gone, only to remain a distant memory for the years to come.
Much love
-Happy Holidays
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