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I never thought my Christmas could get any worse. But I am starting to feel the nervous breakdown coming. And by nervous breakdown, I mean complete meltdown. Everything would be so much easier if I didn't care about people at all. But I do, and that sucks. As I've previously posted, my boyfriend is far from being an angel. He got into some trouble a while back, and everyone hates him for some reason. I go to a very small school, so everyone thinks this relationship is their business.

On the other hand, there's this guy who's liked me for so long. Being the person that I am, I can put myself in his shoes and just imagine what it must be like to see me dating a guy he hates. And I feel like such a horrible person for not feeling the same way about him that I actually considered going back to single life and staying that way for the rest of my life.

He makes me happy, though (my boyfriend). He somehow manages to cheer me up...and not a lot of people can do that. It just hurts ..and sucks, knowing that I'm hurting someone that bad just by being with him. Arg, I hate high school.

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I need to find something useful to do with my time. Maybe then I'll stop thinking about this.

-Happy Holidays, lovelies