The Wings That You Burn

Okay, so I had this horrible day and night yesterday. And it made me think about how much I let people get to me in general. I've therefore decided that my opinion is the only one that counts and that I can do whatever the hell I please and say whataver I want [although I would never consider saying anything mean about anyone ever again, so I'm stopping that for good, sick of everyone as I may be].

I've also changed my mind about hugs and contact with other human beings. And I realised that in all truth, the only person I am mad at in this story is me. And I can live with that. It happens to me often, being mad at me.

Anywho, out with the old [Also Know As Drama] and in with the new [Also Known As Having a Good Time and Not Worrying About Anything]. Let's change the topic of my rant right *now*.

Lately I've found that I want to be around people so much more than I used to. I guess that's another good thing that came out of the disaster that is my love life. I want to be around my friends, I want to be around my family. I like talking to people and getting to know them, or having intelligent discussions.

It's like whatever was blocking that off is gone. I love it. I will talk to anyone about anything. Much easier to trust people and to let them in knowing that if they betray me or hurt me or disappear out of my life, it's not actually gonna hurt half as much as I was expecting it to. And it's not the end of the world, really. Life doesn't wait for you to get better, it doesn't wait for you to get up.

Anyways, this was very random...and confusing. Nothing I wrote in this blog today actually makes sense in my head.

I'll go do something now.

- Buh-Bye!

P.S. --> Green Clay Mask again. I look like a zombie :P.

Edit: I miss the way things used to be before. How we were able to talk. You know, no strings, nothing. We were almost friends for a second there. I miss that. I miss talking about anything and not having that matter. It was all just trivial back then, we could do anything and everything. Talk about anything, and it never affected us. *sigh* I wish we could go back to that. I wish we could *all* go back to that.